the undertaking

today I was given a task. it isn't easy at all. in fact, its somewhat giving me a headache. to fulfill it I need a lot of time and effort, which I'm afraid is going to be difficult due to me still being in NS. while my friend is not intransigent, I feel the importance and significance of the tasks, as many other along the future would depend on it. I need ideas, creativity.

tomorrow shall be my guard duty. sudden, but not that bad. I can only hope I won't be so shagged out as I plan to do brainstorming during whatever rest time I can find that I'm not slipping away into darkness. a lot of things hit me today. I guess I'm kind of a 'looking back' person.