I feel bad

about the past times. hmm. thinking it through I felt that I indeed have done some things that were rather dubious, and unclear. some of those times I think back, and I begin to wonder, was it altruism that guided me (which I had hoped and wanted) that was for the good, or was it my own selfish thoughts that construed my actions. I used to think and believe it was the former, but now looking at it, I'm beginning to look deeper into that surface mirage and doubting it. I'm not clear about it, but maybe, just maybe, it might have been due to my own selfish needs and wants. for that I feel very bad in my humblest and most honest sincerity. I've realized my shortfalls, and I will try my best not to let it happen again. my apologies.