am I owned?

I've got this feeling of losing, losing a battle so close to winning.

Well it was pretty unexpected that my exponent would be so well versed in the same form of art as me. Willing or unwilling, that I do not myself know. If so, I shall move on to a certain more "drastic" measure to ensure victory, at the expense of myself. Chasing this reason leads only to nothing but personal satisfaction, which is what I feed on.