a week

before the dreaded 'fun' SPT(Section Proficiency Test). I have to get some stuff organized. another short weekend. tomorrow is guard duty again. damn it. wednesday then sunday. they should really put a rule that stops people from doing duty more than once a week. it's tiring like hell. this saturday was really boring. I slept most of the day. tried playing a few games but it didn't help me find fun in any way. ahh. the idiosyncrasies of life. the penchant to do nothing. absolutely nothing. I wonder how someone can find a game more significant than a human relation. if tomorrow was free I would have watched a movie. but it's not. I'm quite sick and tired of these stuff. at this point of time I have exactly 6months and 13 days before I ORD. I can't wait for it. honestly. I'm not in the mood for it yet, but I yearn for it. I just want to go to starbucks and chill with a friend. but I have no friends that are free tonight, or maybe free any time. how depressing. but I'm not depressed. I'm just bored. kinda like a psychosis. playing in my mind is the lack of free time.