I'm thinking too much

a few words and I can ponder for hours. the consequences, the result. it shouldn't be like that. it's far beyond my reach, I can never smell it. I realize my situation, and I'm fully aware. it might not be the case, but I know myself the reason why. I can see the future ahead, totally clear. what it will be, what will happen. I accept it. only then, am I ready. it will be soon.