chasing a lost hope

how does it feel? I guess you can ask me. I've been chasing a lost hope, an unattainable goal. so far it seems that way and I'm pretty sure it will not change anytime soon. sometimes I learn new things along the way. sometimes I get hints and clues. but all this amounts to nothing once you know that you cannot reach it, and that's that. all that is left is the memories of it. memories that show how you've failed. but at the same time are good memories because you enjoyed the times.