weekends are calming

even though there's nothing much to do during the weekends, and I'm bored most of the time, its a warm feeling down there when I know that it is the time for me to take a well deserved break from the hustle and bustle of the chaotic weekday. as january draws to a close soon, this is the final weekend of the month. looking back, I can only look back at a whole set of drastic changes my life has gone through. it feels that how my life had changed this month is greater than how it had changed over the past 4 years. discarding some things I once held dearly to, learning, and experiencing work like never before, the responsibilities, the anticipation.

tonight I've agreed to go to Zouk with a friend to chill. it has been quite a long while since I've been there. a weekend in october to be exact, which was around 3 months back. honestly, I don't feel like going there today, but I keep my word, and so I can only hope to make the best out of it.

yesterday, I realised I wasn't good at following other peoples' methods. instead, I discovered that I was much better using methods I came up with for myself. the toyota starlet is a beautiful car. the first car my dad ever owned, and also the first car I ever sat in, so it means a lot to me. it might very well mean the first car I will get is a starlet, though very old. looking at it is enough to calm me down. just as right on a saturday.

more things to come tonight. wonder what time I'll get home, and how.