look at the time. it's late.

I kind of found an old friend. more like found out a way to contact an old friend. well I've always felt she was a nice person. she has this really cheery face that is as bright as the sun itself when she smiles. I used to feel happy just looking at her and talking to her.

but, I don't think I'll contact her. somethings fade. I guess this is one of them. I felt excited when I found her after such a long time. the last time I spoke to her was in 2003. 6 years ago. however I just feel there were too many things that happened in this 6 years, such that we no longer are the people we used to be. I was much happier and cheerful back then. now I've become this dark, melancholic and lonely person. it would just be "hey, how have you been?" and that's that. what's the purpose of it all then. the acknowledgment? no. I'd rather we meet by chance on the street. I guess that's final. what a waste..