was it ever lost

so I thought I had gone. but no. I hadn't gone anywhere. it hasn't gone anywhere too. recently I was inspired by a friend who is taking the path I would like to follow. I know, it's no easy work following that path, but at least he's enjoying it. I know I would too. I wonder, whether one day I too will walk down that path. I hope I still have time. Exams in 2 days. Did I lose it?