if i had what I wanted

things would be different now. too bad in life. no, at least in my life, I seldom get what I want even after working hard for it. it doesn't matter much does it? it does.

before we part, we linger.
after we part we forget.
when we return,
we stick tightly together.
only to be pulled apart again.

yes, my mood has been down rather lately. I've been bogged down my some problems. schoolwork isn't going too well either. next week will be hectic. the weekends will be burnt. it's been 3 weekends so far and counting.

I won't sleep well tonight as I worry about something. tomorrow I won't be at IT lesson. I hope I don't miss anything important. I need to do work and I'm running out of time. I've got ideas, but no way to channel them out. it can be frustrating. it already is. but right now all I am is worried.