I get it.

I get it loud and clear. it has always been like this. I'm used to it. and because of it, I will end up like this. always. things sometimes go one big round just to slap you back in the face again. but I can't blame anyone. it's no one's fault. it just happens. I may be a victim of it, but I will not be a victim of my own. The only thing I can do is to lock out myself for awhile. I guess, its for the best. I really don't want to be a victim of myself. it's the worst that could ever happen.