why.. why.. why..

am I feeling like that? it's just a simple word. why in the world am I feeling like that? it sucks, it hurts. it has no reference, but it just does. I hate this feeling. I really hate it. I'm not suppose to feel it anymore, but I still do. it carries so much meaning, so much.. or am I thinking too much? it doesn't matter, either way still causes me to be in this state. can I eventually do it? in one or the other way? which will it be?