its getting worse

yes it is. every night I can't sleep. it's getting really bad. firstly its the dreams. they are coming nonstop, its really draining me. secondly, I keep waking up at night due to unknown reaons. Yesterday night was probably the third night in a row that I woke up at between 4:50am and 5:00am. why am I waking up during that time? I don't feel good at all during the day because of this.

and my dreams. I really shouldn't be dreaming about it. it's weird, a combination of uncertainty mixed with anticipation. a jumble of things, that I can't comprehend. I used to think sleeping was one of the greatest pleasures. now it haunts me. I don't know what pain I will go through during the night when I try to go to sleep.