many many things happened.

first, I didn't fully recover from my viral infection almost two weeks ago, and now I'm hit by episodes of migraine again. it's becoming more and more frequent, and I'm tired of convalescing . ATP was rather bad, as I missed my opportunity to get $200 mainly due to the nonpareil sloppiness of the weapon I was using. but I was glad I passed under such circumstances. the weekend was rather uneventful, albeit seeing my friend spend over a thousand dollars on clothes. but it was money well spent I felt. my migraine is much better now, and tomorrow I'm on off. I applied it today after work as I was totally in no shape to do anything. and I'm on status for light duties tomorrow as well.

one thing interesting that happened though, was this vivid dejavu that happened. it had such a deep impact on me that I was momentarily stunned before I was filled with alacrity to figure out what had actually happened. maybe I could see the future? everything was so weird. it was down to perfection; where the can of ice peach tea was; everything. it was like I had dreamt about it but yet was unable to remember when or where; and it also seemed like I had actually done it before a few days ago, of which once again I have no distinct memory off. it's like any memory of it had been extirpated from my mind. and today's event hit a chord that caused it to return.

interesting and intriguing, these dejavu things.

this evil sickness

a valetudinarian I usually am not, but it irks me and makes me all iffy; the illness fails to go away.

what a sickish day

although I was sick, I had my way with my dressing. 1 t shirt, 1 long sleeve cardigan, 1 scarf, and 1 jacket. the weather was cold.. if only everyday was like this. I love layering. though my berms today would have looked weird in comparison with the top.

flash back of 2003/2004

I've seen the videos. damn they were great times spent together.

marred by thursday

sudden unexpected events are simply deleterious to my health. its causing me to be unable to enjoy the plethora of joys presented to me. good thing was that mobilization wasn't activated on the weekends, otherwise I would be totally mercurial. now that mondays, wednesdays, and fridays are tuned for live runs, it means I have to wake up earlier more frequently than before, and this will not, for my mood, make me feel better.

that was tiresome

there was this irritating guy. see - he was doing sentry, while I was on access control. doing the 2-4am shift, I was extremely tired. so I tried to nap on the table. he walks over to the part filled with granite rocks and starts walking around. what usually is a little noise becomes a racket during the silence of the night. then he starts playing with his rifle and cocking it, taking out its magazine and other noise-inducing actions. so I would look back from the table, obviously annoyed with the noise. he would say "never mind, you just sleep, i'll look out for the 'DO'". I AIN'T LOOKING FOR THE 'DO' YOU FOOL. I'M TRYING TO HINT TO YOU THAT YOU ARE HELLUVA NOISY. I repeated that a few times, and he still said that. gosh, is he really that dense? thanks to him I couldn't get my targeted nap time. and feel sick today.

yet again, it's clouding me.

in every moment, I'm woolgathering. the same thing over and over again. it's locked in my head. yet a sense of loss is felt when I peer deeper.

she's so beautiful

she's just.. amazing.

mesmerized

the image remains in my mind. the beauty. the style. everything fits so perfectly. like a dream. just like a dream. I will search for reality in it.