the weekends are approaching

after 2 weeks of 1-day weekend, finally 2 days of rest. tomorrow I have to go to some random cohesion bbq @ selarang. I personally feel it's a waste of time. the best cohesion would be a lunch outside together among our own people rather than go play random games or bbq with strangers whom your superior's impose on you to be close friends with even though you only see them once in two months or less.

this week has been long, everyday ended late. either 6 or 6.30 or 7. of course I don't like it, but I've spent alot this week on food. only food. I feel very money-less now. I hate the feeling of that.

the last few moments

before I close my eyes and descend into something I call wonder. time wasting, but still a wonder. if only humans didn't need to sleep and still live as long. when I open it it shall be dark still, but for myself I have to make my way down to camp. tomorrow's sunday, so I hope it won't be so busy as it's not a working day. apart from the mandatory prowling for the GC & G2IC, which is the only difference from a weekday. I somehow feel I'll still not get enough rest. hmmm. after washing my face my sleepiness somehow got killed. but still I have to get lost in it. ah, the exacerbating of a glorious sunday.

my mood is killed by the thoughts of tomorrow,
leaving me empty and filled with sorrow.
even if it passes, I will not be glad,
for another day ahead, it will not be the best.
evenings are when I can only rest.

a week

before the dreaded 'fun' SPT(Section Proficiency Test). I have to get some stuff organized. another short weekend. tomorrow is guard duty again. damn it. wednesday then sunday. they should really put a rule that stops people from doing duty more than once a week. it's tiring like hell. this saturday was really boring. I slept most of the day. tried playing a few games but it didn't help me find fun in any way. ahh. the idiosyncrasies of life. the penchant to do nothing. absolutely nothing. I wonder how someone can find a game more significant than a human relation. if tomorrow was free I would have watched a movie. but it's not. I'm quite sick and tired of these stuff. at this point of time I have exactly 6months and 13 days before I ORD. I can't wait for it. honestly. I'm not in the mood for it yet, but I yearn for it. I just want to go to starbucks and chill with a friend. but I have no friends that are free tonight, or maybe free any time. how depressing. but I'm not depressed. I'm just bored. kinda like a psychosis. playing in my mind is the lack of free time.

beats and smooth rhymths.

went to roslan's place for new year celebrations and food. he really put in a lot of effort, and prepared much food for all of us. disappointingly, majority of the people he invited didn't turn up. those who did: joey, hasan, ling & me. hasan brought his girl along. they seemed so loving. i stayed from afternoon till night, playing blackjack and dices with joey and roslan. yz also seemed to be in some sorta debt, so I lent him $313, which he said he would pay me back next month on pay day. roslan also needed some money for his wife's medical bill. If he really needs it I'll lend him as well.

I tried the vietnamese spring rolls made by his wife and it tasted fantastic. I also played around with his son while watching tv. cute little bundle of joy. tomorrow work starts. this was a really quick weekend. only sunday was counted. like I've mentioned before, next weekend will also be a single day weekend due to guard duty on sunday. my section field training will be from march 3rd to march 14. bad timing, really.

saturday was crappy

had to go back to work today from 8.30 - almost 4.15. I think it's totally unnecessary. wasted my entire day. didn't have much time to go out, and couldn't make it to clifford's house for new year celebrations. haven't seen him for quite some time already. tomorrow I hope is good, the only day free after a tremendously busy week. and next sunday I'm on duty.

He's left

our shores, for how long I do not know exactly. but he won't be back so soon. I hope he enjoys himself there. It was quite a sad scene, bidding goodbye to a close friend. I could well say everyone was sad at the point as he walked into the check-in area. I won't get to meet him probably till the middle of next year. I only can wish him all the best.

today is valentine's day, but it seem just like another ordinary day. maybe its the feeling of goodbye that overcame the dateless valentine's day night. but being dateless no longer bothers me. I've reinstated in my mind my goal, and having other commitments only hinder my goal. it provides only ersatz satisfaction.

tomorrow still have work. sucks to be me.

leaving my hse now

to send Kenji off.

leaving my hse now

to send Kenji off.

i'm not feeling good

recently work load is at its maximum I've ever experienced. I'm well tired. I hope tomorrow my leave will be cleared. Its DAMN URGENT.

i trod to work only

to receive bad news. today is OT week. will end at 7 everyday. I forgot my EDS password. YET AGAIN. and I need to apply for leave. and I'm tired. not yet used to working again. so tired.

i must stop

thinking, and using the words "I used to.."
sad..

to sum it up

the chinese new year 2008 was a good time. I met with my relatives, some of whom I would have never met throughout the year. but on the contrary I spent a lot of money as well. I won't exactly say I'm happy throughout the four days, but it was a good time. work starts again tomorrow. can wait.

the blinking red light

in the blink of an eye, it's already wednesday night, bordering 12. the past 3 days went by really quickly. monday I was on MC, then tuesday I went for duty, and this morning I came back. I barely stepped into my house for more than 30mins before leaving to collect my friend's phone from Sony Ericsson service center. not surprisingly, it was closed. so I went over to another friend's house to try to help him tackle his new computer's problem. it was a tough nut to crack, and even after I left, I couldn't help him much, sorry to say. I hope he will be able to solve it. I reached home just in time to leave once again for my reunion dinner at Pine Valley restaurant. the food was very good, but not exceptional. finished the meal and went up to the room to play some mahjong. I tried to sleep after awhile, but the kids were far too disturbing fooling around in the room I could not get any. so I took a walk below, and waited till they were ready to go off, then headed back home. I could have been in town now, watching the fireworks with Alex, if I did not reject him earlier. but rest comes first. I slept only 3 hours last night on duty. not a substantial amount.

its late, yes it is

I just came back from watching Sweeney Todd. it was like what many described it to be, a musical-movie fusion. it was quite good, on a scale of ten I'd give it a seven. the story line was a simple one, but the execution from start to finish was pure art displayed on a fine palette. the music and lyrics were well written too.

before the movie, my mum and I had dinner at Earle's Swensens. It was supposedly more 'atas' then the normal Swensens, but we didn't knew it till my cousin who was working there told us so. sure, the prices were higher, there was a salad bar, but somehow it didn't feel anywhere near 'atas' standard. later I met up with Alex and Sebrina and their friend Wei Quan. on the way out of the airport, when the lift door opened, I saw this guy in a very familiar jacket walk past me. a jacket so freshly imprinted on me I can not forget. sure enough I looked at his face, it was Jiayu. I just met him yesterday for the bowling session cum family day. beside him was his music teacher Lee Wei Song, the brainchild of the Lee Wei Song music school, singer & composer. apparently through the brief words exchanged it seemed that Jiayu was sending him off overseas. so as both parties were in a rush, we didn't stick around for long, and left for our respective destinations.

what struck me was the incredible coincidence. come on, T3 is THAT BIG. and I didn't spot him from afar. he was walking right past the door less than 2m away when the door opened and I stepped out. absolutely amazing!

anyway now I'm back and it's late. disturbingly late. I know last saturday I slept later, but.. its different. I had a valid excuse cuz it was clubbing, and clubbing is meant to be late. but anyway, I enjoyed my dinner, the movie, and the company; even the pleasant, albeit brief surprise. the day didn't end up in nothing after all.

let's see what tomorrow brings.

alive and kickin'

work was a naught today. spent more than half the day at east coast park. first bowling like crazy in the morning, then played futsal(sp?). it's been so long since I've touched, actually kicked, a ball. the night is cold. it rained much during the day. tonight is rather inactive, but that's good. just chill. tomorrow I have no plans as yet, maybe just sit around at home or at some cafe. I might want to head to town for some shopping too. can't make up my mind now, but its okay. I'll do it tomorrow. hah. procrastination. nah, it's already very late now, my brain is just kind of lazy.

get me power, do it baby.
get me power, get me higher