winning isn't everything

so what if you've won at something. there are other things you've lost. life is about sacrifices. in order to get something, we lose something. that something you get now might seem important now, but will it be important in the future? will that thing you gave up be just as of lesser significant as it is now in the future?

I've lost so much, and I'll only lose more. pessimistic? not so. it's a fact. looking back, the stuff I've gained or won bears little meaning now. even then, some thing I've given to achieve, I've failed. well we don''t always win, but it still feels bad, and we have to learn from our mistakes, and try again, if we have that chance again. sadly I don't have that chance anymore. what's gone is gone, and is getting further away from me as I watch it go.

just two more nights and I won't be in here. I'll be overseas, and when I get back, school would already have started. I would really enjoy some cool down period after the holiday, but sadly enough, I don't have the luxury to enjoy it. then again I have to ensure I get my courses in SMU while I'm overseas. hopefully there will be internet where I'm at since I'll be bringing my laptop along for communicative purposes.

it's been raining the past few nights, it's feeling different. it felt different last night. it felt distant. I feel like I'm floating away from reality. I'm losing the human touch. not exactly misanthropy, but well, I can't seem to connect well with other people. it's enjoyable, yet miserable at the same time. being happy all the time is like living a lie. being sad all the time is just wasting life away. I'm neither, but I'm not exactly well balanced between the two.

run for your life

everything is going bad. it really is. I feel so tired everyday. I've had nightmares. I'm beginning to get caught in the web once again. I've got so many things to settle. so many things on my hands to complete. it's painful, it really is. I'm sleepy. I'm always sleepy. today, is just another day. today is the day.

exams are over

the exams are over. relief. but more issues are at hand. mainly, I need to settle the SMU courses, and the NTU courses. I just submitted my picture to SMU late, and I only got 1/3 of the courses I wanted. I must now hope I can bid for it, otherwise I'll have to manage both SMU and NTU side with great complexity trying to match courses together once again.

I have much to say, but it's late. I shall write tomorrow.

it's a weird day

today I deactivated my facebook account. why? because I feel it's useless. how does it enhance my life? it doesn't. I don't use for any purpose. it's just something there, that has no purpose.

less than a week before my final paper. I haven't started studying. good luck to meeeeeeee