my aura

I must have this aura around me that makes most people feel uneasy. I was walking down the stairs today with 3 friends when we were surrounded by people lobbying for votes for the union day. they were carrying sweets, chocolates and other snacks attached to slips of paper to remind us to vote for them. there were many of them, and they were quite evenly spread out.

as soon as we reached the bottom of the flight of stairs, they flocked to us. wait. correction. they flocked to my 3 friends and hounded them to vote in their favor. NO ONE approached me. it's kind of amusing. I think I must really have some sort of aura around that broadcasts to everyone to just leave me alone.

it's intriguing, it's mind boggling. no one has messed with me since I entered secondary school. you know the occasional teasing here and there. well it would go on around me, but never touched me. it had already existed since then. how do people develop such auras? what must we do to get it? I definitely wasn't born with it.

not another night

remnants of a memory, once thought I could forget,
time hails forth, a distant tail, a speck.
the laughing torture, an apropos act
cool, dark, smiling, no longer since it cracked.
it burns, it burns, this wish held high
to reach it needs a sacrifice, not self told lies.

1st week

it can be said that the first week of school is over, though I've only had 2 modules out of 5. the rest will begin next week. I can't find any motivation to study once again. I feel so out of touch. wonder what's wrong, seriously. I want to grind all the modules, but nothing drives me. I wake up and get bored almost immediately, losing focus.

much more awaits me the following week. my only long holidays are over. this semester will be an extra long one because one module has a very late exam date. but more importantly, how can I find my drive back. last semester I only got it back towards the second half. I don't want it to be like that again for this time.

I'm confused. Multiple causes, no answers yet.

disappeared

I guess it's not good to disappear, where everyone doesn't care. no one, thanks. school's starting once again. moving on to my second year. how I wish everything has ended. bunnies.