the start of the week

I'm feeling sick. It hit me suddenly, I don't know why. Why?
It's only the beginning, the beginning of a busy week.
The weekend was great, though it passed really fast.
I hope this week will pass fast too.
Urgh, why am I sick.

home sweet home

finally I get to smell and taste the air and food of home once again. I've missed them all so much, even though it was only four days. it is just so refreshing and makes me feel alive again. all the time spent in camp just harbored my illness of states, physically and mentally. today I shall live once again.

hi all, welcome to the new future

the new future is a copy of the old one. nuff said.
as boredom continue to sink in, temperatures are rising.
work is piling on, responsibilities are maximising.
like I said, welcome to the new future.
the idiosyncrasies of life.

2nd day of MSCC

everyday is boring. yesterday was. today is. now is the free time we have to burn/doproject/dojournal. I don't know why but I'm sleepy so early already. maybe its the air around the camp which has that effect. either way, after this I'm gonna have nothing to do besides watching television and sleeping or readign Time/The Economist. both are good reads I can't deny, but they lack the ability to hold my interest with the information overload rush they provide me.

everyday is lessons. I don't feel like doing my project today, as I have forgotten to bring my notebook down with me to take notes, and I haven't settled down clearly as yet. the rules they give us are so shady. so I shall take the opportuniy to watch some television shows, something I just revisited yesterday and have a good night's sleep. two more days to go.

mercy. ORLY?

my last weeknight out

hope the days will be better. miss a.

it's very sad..

"it's very sad.." has become a famous phrase, for the wrong reasons. but well, I shouldn't elaborate more, since the answer is pretty easy to find out there. anyway, today was a tiring but nice day. I had a great tasting plate of thai belachan fried rice, which was unexpectedly good so as to speak. made me feel like having another plate. met up with CK and Marcus and Alex, then went over to Alex's place to watch Evan Almighty, the Bruce Almighty sequel. and here I am, back at home, waiting for sunday to pass. tmr shall be the last weeknight I'll experience for at least a month. I will miss them.

linger

the lingering feeling still doesn't go away. guilt? I don't know but it's really really tiring me out.

haji lane

ate at then quaint place, went looking for some clothes. then went to bugis and suntec, ate ben & jerry's, met Kenji and Kristalle along the way.

gonna get in trouble

I seriously hope I can avoid this series of trouble. if it gets me, its gonna get me REAL bad.

maybe, if I didn't say

as the day approaches, I feel more and more unsettled. this indignant feeling of depart-ment leaving my more and more spaced out. a nebbish I am not, that's for sure. its just that, I can't help but feel this way. the sudden epic change of life with the snap of the fingers. for this is my last week before my term begins, and I will spend it.

ah, a wasted, but nice day

Then it was already 11 when I woke up. Hit the gym and worked till I was all weak. Ate 915, then went home. At night ate at astons, then went to eugene's house to chill and watch football. tiring day.

the tao huay + you tiao

the significance of it in my life is getting larger. somehow I feel that I need a dose of tao huay every now and then, in order to feel right and relaxed. its like a anesthetic that blocks out all unwanted pain and suffering, the numbness of blood loss, the shock of a lightning discharge. all simply characterised by tao huay + you tiao and a cup of tao ni.

the perfect setting for friends gathering, enjoying life's simple give and takes, at an inexpensive cost. if any of you are wondering, its in between Geylang Lorong 19 and Lorong 21, called rochor beancurd or something like that.

the meeting was unusual, but it went fairly expressive. which was good in my view.

tired like hell

one of the most tiring guard duties was undertaken yesterday. boring boring night.

BBQ + duty tmr

today's BBQ was great, meeting up with old friends as well as meeting new people, even though I didn't speak to the new guys much. The food was great, especially the stingray, sotong, and ginger-butter prawns by Kristalle. the chicken wings were nice too, with a touch of indian spice(masala?) from Kenji's indian friend. updated myself with Prada and Jiayu, but didn't manage to meet up with Hizuan as he was caught up with something at the last minute and wasn't able to make it down to the BBQ. no mention of the infamous BBQJOHN though during this BBQ. Jiayu sent me home as it was already too late, for which I'm really grateful.

tomorrow is national day, and I'm doing duty. ha! it seems I'm perpetually on duty. but its not so bad.. when my MSCC starts I'm gonna be staying in. with projects and daily journals to do. terrible

here I am

here I am, displaying obscenely large amounts of levity in whatever I say everyday. I tend to think a lot don't I? I can only guess its due to the extant pressures in society that forces people to conform to this sort of behavior. but I always was a non-conformist. am I showing signs of breaking down my iron curtain? have I reached the highest cul-de-sac and therefore am sliding down slowly now?

sometimes I irritate myself too, but everything is controllable. the bete noire of me is myself, only myself, and none other. overcome I need, then once again my fingertips will be around the world I live in.

the words spilled out

I said something I thought I shouldn't have. now I know something that I don't mind knowing. but that something doesn't seem all too great. did I do the right thing?

certain actions shouldn't be thought about after they've been done.

a sleepy, but free day

lesson is the word of the day. in fact for the next 2 as well. my mind with its quixotic thoughts, often block me from what's being taught in the classroom. maybe my interest isn't as expedient. early day tomorrow, will I make it on time? I hope so. its time I made it on time for once.

her eyes sparkle

the fair maiden, with her flowing hair. young, pretty, and weirdly attractive.
bright sparkling eyes, that stare deep into you.

pain everywhere

after yesterday's gym, my muscles are in some seriously pain state today. especially the area around the latissmus dorsi and shoulder/back region. I can't lift my arm higher than my chest, otherwise I would suffer excruciating pain. my arms are strengthless as well. any exertions results in a stinging and aching feeling.

cage is over

totally shagged out. morning gym, night soccer. energy-less.

haha the CAGE TONIGHT!

going to the cage tonight..~

the not so obvious

as today breezed past, laziness distilled through me, filtering as well through the body. I felt that it was the cul-de-sac day in communications with others. watched The Simpsons movie, and felt it was a great show with sincere pockets of pure humour. parsing a short film about a guy, to be filmed I hope.

sometimes people just don't listen

and they are really unwilling to try. the feeling you get when you are trying to help change a situation and no one is willing to work with you as a team DESPITE the fact that there are NO OTHER PLANS being suggested, its really bad. its enough to bring pain and frustration to me, not because of the situation(ok I must admit the situation does add a little, but what really drove the nail was the response).

in situations like this sometimes I wonder do people actually respect me? or do they just treat me like another fool, spouting nonsense. and one thing I hate is people not giving me a basic respect in the form of acknowledgment. its puts me off.

ahh the ego of all man. it will one day become the killer of society and relationships.